So, that’s how it goes

You Know

you know it feels very sad knowing that every time I want to share something, it just that I recall writing blog is way better than making instagram stories.

I used to keep a diary but I got very busy with all the chinese courses I have, thus stopping the diary at 24th May.

I’ve realized that my progress of learning chinese is improving very fast, but I got burnt out really crazy

Thus, doing stuffs were always look easy. After I applied, I just got humbled by how stupid I am, and there is more to achieve in this world.

Now, all my ideas are shattered, my motivation to learn cantonese and chinese is gone.

It’s that hard to persist motivation

My PhD motivation gone.

Everything is gone,

Is it that I hit rock bottom, once more?

But let’s just set our motivation straight, and make our goal straight too. Actually setting goals are too naive because some stuffs are just burning out, so stuffs other wise is just so annoying that you actually want to get rid of it.

Okay, so lets reset the bad, take the good, I’ve just woke up, and my mind is clearer now,

Let’s set a goal for every 2 months, if a plan goes well, continue with it. Losing motivation is fine, it’s part of human life, I need to start to forgive.

Okay first of all, let’s set things straight.

Blogging:

• I’ll try to keep things up here, thing this as my instagram

Working:

• As Usual,
• While in work, I need to manage my time better, I can slip in the rest time with positive activity:
  • like reading articles
  • Listening to music
  • Language learning
  • doing some competitive programming

Language Learning:

• I’ll do cantonese courses 2 days a week, each is 1 hour, Tuesday and Friday
• I’ll do chinese courses, time is tentative, but also 2 hours each week.
• Thus in total ill spend about 100 hours each on languages every year. Which is okay.
• I’ll spend my time immersing through youtube and instagram content

Body and Life:

• Follow my guts
• I love playing basketball, will spend time playing basketball on weekends if i feel bored
• Can spend time out with friends
• Maybe get some good foods during the weekend
• I wanna lose weight too, so eating too much is not allowed
• For the end of this september, I wanna try to lose 5 kgs, which will bring my weight down to 64-65 kgs.
• For the end of october, I will bring my weight down to 60 kgs.
• In order to achieve that, I will stop eating dinner, unless it’s a social eating.
• Going to the gym is good, if i dont feel tired and lazy, and my body is fit enough to exercise, I will exercise.

Keeping in Touch With Academia and Algorithms:

• Again blogging is nice, I will spend my time reading competitive programming problems and try to solve them.
• I dont wanna set a pressure because the wound and trauma is still here.