It's Because of Me Sabotaging My Own Sleep

I'm Developing Symtomps of Dementia

This is an emergency blog. I slept at 5 AM and woke up at 9 today. It causes me the same problem as when I landed in Hong Kong from an overnight flight, where I had a severe brain fog, can't think, can't talk. Which, I'm thinking is what Dementia feels like.

And the reason is, because of me sabotaging my own sleep. Now, sleep is the most under-attentioned thing in my life. I never thought about it that much, because so far it has not been causing me problems in my life. Not until very recently, when I started travelling, I came back sleep deprived, brought depression with me, trying to quit my job, did interviews at unusual time, ruined my sleeping schedule, brought MORE depressions, suicidal thoughts came, and it snowballed until today.

Things got better when I sleep at 12 AM every night and woke up at 8.30AM every morning. There's only one problem. My brain said "You're sleeping too much, your life turns into a working and sleeping boring piece of shit." Well, my brain is not wrong because it's occupied with work load from 9 AM to 8 PM. After I showered and cleaned everything, it's already 9 PM and I'm gonna spend most of my time winding down. Which is only 3 hours of free time without me having brainrots and other dopamine stimulation.

If i decided to go out, I will be ready to wind down at 10 or 11 PM. Which is even worse!